I knew I was falling down on the job...

But I can't believe I almost let a week go by without posting!

I guess it was one heck of a weekend because it's now Wed of the following week.  Ok, let's see where to wrap up my weekend and through the week.  I fell off the diet.  I had some good meals and some not so good.  Friday I ate out at El Pollo Loco since we didn't have the boys and I didn't watch what I ate, I just went with it until I was full. I ate Mac N Cheese and potatoes and gravy. Saturday I tried to watch what I ate and did an oatmeal for breakfast at McDonalds, lunch at home.  But I went over on dinner and ate two bbq chicken sandwhiches. I was fine at dinner but when we got home late, I saw everyone eating a snack and I caved. Sunday was Father's Day so I took Chris out for breakfast and ate at Carl's Jr. I didn't eat healthy at all.  I snacked on M&M's.  Dinner I ate Curry Chicken and rice. Since it was Father's Day I fixed cherry cheesecake and ate it.  Ok, since Monday and Tuesday some meals went well but by the end of the day I was still hungry so I caved into my cravings. I need to pull myself back in since I went overboard and a little crazy. Even today I had a chocolate donut. I need to rein myself back in and look at my goals again and get on track this week. Tomorrow I will post a better day.

Thursday is not quite Friday

Didn't post yesterday because it was so busy I didn't get home until around 11p.m.  I did my workout then went with the family to watch Robbie's 7 on 7 JV football practice. It lasted so long that we didn't even eat until 9:30 at night! By that time I was starving.  I went over in calories and split a protein bar with the kids to help my hunger at football.  I had planned a quick heat up dinner but we were so starving that we went to McDonalds and couldn't wait to get home.  It just was one of those nights we were in a bind and went for the quick fix.  It seems with sports and kids it happens a lot.  I tried to stay good and had a hamburger.  I did sneak in a chicken nugget from one of the kids' meals.  I felt like I could've eaten 10 more.

I do have a confession that I also ate 2 Paradise Bakery chippers.  My boss asked me if I wanted a cookie when she went to grab me a drink and I didn't even think to say no thanks, as I usually always say yes that'd be great.  It just slipped out by remote. So once it was in front of me I couldn't resist.  So Wed was my challenge day that I slipped up a little.  I ended up being over 150 calories. Other than that I did breakfast and lunch healthy.

Thursday-I was perfectly within my calorie budget.  I worked out for the 4th day of the week. Yeah me!  And I also resisted the box of chippers from Paradise Bakery that she gave me.  I put a sticky note on the box for everyone to help themselves to the box to help the resistance go faster.
B-protein shake
L-1/2 banana with greek yogurt and peanut butter dip-yummy!
     1/4 cup leftover roast
      1/2 cup corn
Snack-1/2 banana from lunch
      whole wheat bread slice with butter
D-grilled stuffed hamburger on whole wheat bun. Stuffed with olives, mushrooms and cheese! So good!

Tuesday , Tuesday , Tuesday

Well, the day started out right. I got up with Jace to take him to scout camp at 6:30 a.m. Got dressed in my workout clothes and ran a mile.  I haven't run for about 3 weeks. I ate right and was really craving something sweet or bread-like. Brownies or cookies.  So I started looking up on pinterest some clean eating recipes and re-calculating the amount of calories I had left to eat.

Then I got a phone call from work.

I was so stressed out and so upset that I didn't want to eat anything anymore.  I did do my Wod for the day.  I was thinking of maybe running with Kendra but I scrapped that.  The Wod was a really quick 6 min one again.  So now I'm under calories-didn't even make it to 1200 calories and I know I'm putting myself into starvation mode but I really have no appetite.  So I'm going to just go to bed since I have to get up at the crack of dawn to do stupid things that work calls for.  I did pass up on my husbands M&M's he bought and put on the side of my bed for temptation.  It's great that I'm too upset to eat it.  Hopefully tomorrow goes better.

My dedication to eating right & working out

So I'm renewing my commitment to eating right & working out.  I read somewhere to write it in a blog, and since I have this blog but haven't used it for a couple of years I figure I'd better start using it again.  I'm going to write in this daily to keep myself responsible for eating and exercising.

Here are my goals:

To eat clean-replacing white bread and pastas with whole wheat. To limit sweets and fried foods. To drink more water and limit my diet sodas. To eventually get where I can go 4-7 weeks without any sweets.

To exercise 4-6 times a week.

To be able to look good in a bikini, with a nice flat stomach.

Ok, so now that I wrote out my goals I made a new wall of pictures and motivational quotes I taped to my closet door so I see it daily.  I also cut out a picture of a great looking stomach that I carry in my purse so when I'm eating out I can look at it before I make any choices to remind me of my goal so I can make a good eating choice.

Okay since it's only Monday I've immediately wanted ice cream yesterday.  Didn't help that Chris bought my favorite Mint Cookies and Cream.  I told myself I can have ONE scoop if I make it through the Friday by eating clean. Here is what I've done so far:

Sun:
B-mcdonalds sausage & egg burrito-ate insides only, no tortilla
L-egg omelet with cheese, spinach & sausage
D-Barros 1 pepperoni slice & 4-6 boneless wings (I didn't really count)
Ok I can explain Barros-my Aunt & mom took the family out for dinner so I limited my pizza slice and even though I saw crusts left on the kids' plate I resisted it.  Was still over in calories though.

Mon:
B-protein shake
L-chicken spinach hummus wrap with whole wheat tortilla & grapes
D-t-bone steak, corn, brown rice
S-Kashi cereal
stayed within my calories.  Did my crossfit wod. Only 6 min though-very quick wod but got my heart pumping & light sweat. Drank lots of water & only 3/4 of a diet today. Very proud of myself!